pretend.....

you sneaks into my life gives you love and fun.
you screws with my brain,i get addicted.
There is nowhere to run.


you makes me want you more.
And at the height of my desire,
you spits on me and turns off my fire.
you went out, your gone, And ripped out my heart.
you left me to cry.

While months passing by,im finally recover.

And look who is back? The long lost lover.

The excuses are lame.
your sweet just like before.
i forgive what you did.
i just cannot blame you for whatever you did.
i just want you back.

And when the time comes... When im truly fall for you again,
And i get addicted...
you put me down and turn your back on me and leave me again,
So bad i wish i would drown.
And that is your trick.

you tell me to calm down,
you tell me you love me without a meaning,
you tell me you wants me when in truth is you like someone else,
you tell me that i have to understand and let go,
you tell me to move on, and what choice do i have?

I will never understand the reasoning for someone to 'move on'.
It's not like you're really going to move on.
you're just trying to tell your heart to stop thinking about that special person every second of every minute of every day 'till it finally becomes a routine and you don't notice it anymore.
That is, until you see that person with someone else and then you have to remind yourself again, smile....just smile'.

What choice must I make?
But I can't go on like this.
I am suffering through Endless torture,
I have to do something before I drown.
Do i have to pretend you're not there?
Or im just gonna ignore you and pretend your not hurting me?

so thats what i did for the past year, pretend that im not hurt.
we've been friends all along,pretending that i dont love you anymore
its really hard to pretend that everythin is prefectly fine
your with the person you really love, your close but yet far.

I throw my head back and laugh like nothing matters.
I carry on pretending like my heart isn't shattered.
it seems like everything's just perfectly ok
but nobody knows that inside, im wasting away.

I pretend I’m not ecstatic when you call me,
even if know you just called to have someone to get drunk with ,
i also pretend i wasnt hurt, even i know i was your last option.

I pretend that i wasnt hurt,
when you kiss me,hold my hand and ask me if i love you,
but called me in ryan's name

I pretend it doesn’t hurt,when you tell me about other people you’re seeing.
and when you talked about the fight you had with him.
the hardest part is,me,giving advice that you guys should get back together,
but inside, im jealous and hurt like hell.

guess it’s hard to pretend you love somebody when you don’t,
But it’s even harder to pretend you don’t love somebody when you do.