are u a rocker ???

"rocker ka no ? " people from my work, common friends, common friends of common friends or the new people i met or simply people arround me, thats what they always been askin, " rokcer ka no?" and i just simply say NO, coz really am not, im just a LISTENER.


i dont wanna put myself in a box and labeled it as a ROCKER,
rocker is not just a popularity, rocker its not what you listen, "lalong lalo na na" rocker is not a fashion statement,

i think and i believed that rocker is a job, a one difficult job, coz you have to smart, street smart, and you have to know evrythin from that music scene, you have to be aware .like what subgenre, whos who, whos that and all that...

from what i know ROCK is a genre of music, and nowadays lot of subgenre been made up, old and new school, reggae, ska , melancholy, postcore, hardcore, progressive, death, gothic, metal, alternative, indie, emo, punk etc... and its all come from the root ROCK, i just cant think why from each genre, the fact that they all come from one root, they still disc each one and another.
and i just canr believed there are people so called POSER, tryin to be so called rocker, but when you ask them about thier music, they dont even know a single, what they know is a sell up music, and i just cant believed there are people who dress up like a rocker just so they could called them self as a rocker...

But you know what for me a real ROCKER is being truth about yourself, expressing the real you without the fear of what other people might say, but of course it should be in a responsible way...
its not just on how you dress, it not just on what music you listened, it not just on how many band you know, its about passion, its about responsibility.. its about being yourself

ok, again im not a rocker.. im just a listener.. im not a rocker simply beacause in all what ive said , i didnt possesed even a single of that...

it was FUCKin FUN..!!

fuck,fuck,,fuck,, that's the word comin out from my mouth when im in the orgasms of riding the zyclon loop.
it was late afternoon when my friends ( my best of friends ) called me and ask me to go with them in amusement park.they know how exhausted i am. that's why they thought i need a break.we really had a great time playing arround acting like we were kids again.we rode all the roughest rides. hahahah that was so fuckin fun.
at least now im starting to put my life back into pieces again, thanx to all my friends.well, they dont know what i've been through, they dont have any idea how hurt i am, but i thank them coz whenever time needed , they're here to cheer me up, though they did'nt know they're cheered me up.
at least now im starting to get over. im still recovering and tired with my past relationship.but with them , i knew i can easily start up with my life again..
i do still thinkin about her, but, the heck! why would i get crazy over the girl who didnt even care how i feel.enough of that crap...
i do really appreciate what my friends been doin to me, i felt they even spoiled me,he.he..he...i thank god for giving me ahhhmmm ......... well they do have exseccive bahavior but that behavior makes them cool. pretty cool that i wont regret bieng with them for the rest of my life..
sometimes i felt i was a kid, coz they trheat me that way ,in good way of course.after the car accident they always show me how they really care.i do really appriaciate thier concerns.
thanx to all of them.

still her....!!!

Even I hated her cat and her friends, it’ll take more than a night of shots and strippers to get her out of my system. im now even afraid of the dark and silence, afraid to be alone,

Coz every time im alone in the dark and silence , I can’t help but think about her. think about why she left me .? think why im always being left alone.?

“men often need longer (than women) to recover from break up” Coz men are used to just be quite and not telling anyone what the problem is.

My best bet is to find someone new. But until then, I’ve got to find a route or diversion. for me not think about her

Hmmmm…. What should I do.?

Ahhhh.. I know,

I have to do things im good at .

Whip up my famous pesto sauce

Change my water color set and my charcoal stick

I’ll do anything that reminds me of my skills and talents.

Or I go out often with my friends.

I’ll wrote down all her habits that drove me crazy and the bad fights we had,

Put it near my desktop and phone, to fight the urges of calling her.

So I could step back and review my mind why our relationship didn’t work

I am thinkin of goin out tonight, hook up with some swingers. He..he..he..

But my leg is hurtin again, that’s what I’ve been feelin lately

Now what would I do.?

Ahhh… I’ll just spend all my time leveling up my MU character.

Ya ..ya.. that’s right, I’ll just play MU now , right now, as in now

hmmm...ahhhhhh.oohhhh

really nothin to write for now, i cant think of something interesting to write,

i was too busy hanging out with my best buds.

pretty enjoying my time with them, that i cant find time doin mah blogs,

well, i just do blogs often when im sad and pissed off. and whenever i feel like writin nonsense essenstials. (he.he..he..)

as of now, it would be a long time u wouldnt heard lot from me, coz right now, im happy on what im doin.

dont know where to pull off my emotions and thought on writin somethin'.

so...... just hold up, wait until im hurt and mad again....and wait until i feel like writin again...

starin blankly!!

Nothing to do, still staring blankly at my paint, ( I just did new paint)

I thought doin it , instead of getting bogged down from the sanity she gave me, why not spend it in productive way like paint or write, I’ve realized that I have to move on.

To hell with her! why would I shed tears from the person who doesn’t even care

I’m starting to get over, (well we couldn’t leave the fact that I’m still in love with her)

I guess my love will always be with her.

But I have to find another route to forget her. coz i know she’s not coming back, coz she found someone better than me.

But ill just be here for her anytime she needs me or anytime she needs a friend

Awwww gaawwdd….. that’s the hardest thing to do, to forget the one you madly fallen in love with.

But I don’t have a choice but to move on

Thanx to my friends who’s always been there for me, friends who makes me realized that life doesn’t stop there.

happy i am..

whew!!! i didnt realized its been more than one and a half month since we met,
i didnt realized it will go this far.
i admit, at first, i was never really serious about having her. i thought i never be ( because of what ive been thru, you all know what im saying for those been tracking my blog)
i just thought of never ever of getting in a serious relationship, coz i dont wanna commit and i dont wanna be hurt again,
i thought i was just playin arround with her, but now its not whats happening.
what im fear of (fallin in love) is happening again.
its over a month and a half when i met the girl who bring smile to my face.
who open my heart and give me another chance to find love.
she brighten and give colors on the dull moment of my life.
shes the reason why my happiness is never ending. i never felt better today that shes mine.
i am thankful that she made me really special.
shes all over me know.

what im just fear of is, shes too good for me, that we might end up falling apart.
thats why im now undergoin on a full adjustment of my life.
shes the reason why i felt a new man.
when im with her i felt completely new man.

i am now inspired,
i couldnt ask for more.
i just wish that this relationship will last, and i also wish that she wont stop from loving me.
coz now i was really addicted for her love, and i dont know now how to be alone.
i dont know what to do if i lost her, i cant afford to lose her.
shes now my life
shes the reason why im breathing...

i love her so much.... and i wont stop from loving her, nothing can stop me from loving her...