Sucks to be COOL...

Did they ever treat me as friend?
or they probably did , because it just happened that im part of the so called "team".

actually, i dont believe in the word best friend, better friends or bestest friend..etc
everything just plot because of the situation and chances
people come and go. most people change. bullshit the "some are dont".

im grateful that i have loads of set of friends. and i cant blame myself for that.
because coolness is something i born with. hehehe... kiddin..

but you know what i dont like, i dont like people who control you, who hates you because you dislike what they like.

friends are not suppose to be possessive, friends are suppose to understand
(well, it doesnt count unless it was way way overboard).
friends are suppose to trust, and never talk anything against you behind your back.

i dont even know what they're pissin about. it was so self centered selfish.
we're all grown ups, and we're suppose to act like one.
if you think i did something stupid that is way way overboard, then you got to tell me.
i dont have a extrasensory perception.
i did my part, even exceeded it. i reached out askin what the fuck is wrong and if i did stupid things to deserve this, but you guys said nothing.
ok thats what you said, so i thought " ok, fume all you want, let them be, this shall pass".
but still, i dont remember i did something awfully wrong, thats the least thing i can do, offend people, i always consider the feelings of other people fairly.
is it jealous? of what? of who? what the hell..

im not use living in plastic world and pretensions.
lemme know if i did something wrong, broad your mind you people.
this is not a battle between who your real friends are. this is pointless
did i ever question who you guys with?
i mean. im not selfish, if i wanna go out and asked you guys, but it happened your already with other set of your friends or even your partner, i wont feel bad, i'll understand.
after all, i dont own you.
did you guys heard me complaining about that?
NO! think way back. think the other way around.
so dont give me that friendship pack bullshit treaty thing, because you guys we're acting selfish.
and you would never understand, did you guys ever considered what happened?
anyway, even if i explain you wouldnt understand , because you guys are too narrow and selfish to understand.
im not like you guys, that you got all your time to have fun.

anyway, theres no real friends here.
we're all just draw together by chances,
we're all just using each other.